Today I am 44 years old. I have a beautiful family, an incredibly supportive husband and a lot of freedom. I am becoming creatively fulfilled in ways I never thought I would be able to. I am incredibly lucky to be living the life I am living right now.
I am getting papel SF off the ground and it's an incredible task with no childcare or workspace or storage space, and what's suffering is my health, along with the general sanity and cleanliness of our home. I can't believe the difference between these photo booth shots and the ones I took last year (photo booth and photo booth II). The last six months have really taken it out of me, and added about five pounds, too.
I have great intentions for this next year of my life. I beat myself up every day for not walking like I used to, not being able to control my eating (I know this is directly proportionate to sleep deprivation, see a very informative talk on sleep and willpower here) and for letting our place get so crazy messy. But what can I do? It's a fact that when people are getting something off the ground they have to go all in. If David acted like it bothered him at all, these paper shreds all over the floor and glue all over the kitchen counter where we eat and rolls of paper EVERYWHERE then it would be over. But he is so patient with all of this and that keeps me going, too. So I know I can't stop living crazy right now. The kids and I are good, we have a rhythm and I make plenty of time for them. David and I are working around the situation for now. So, the health thing is going to have to wait a few more months.
So classic, isn't it? Looking back at photos from a mere six months ago (that I disliked at the time) and wishing I looked like that now. So typical for me. When will I ever get around to changing this cycle? Hopefully before I turn 45. It's like a broken record up in here. xoxoxo
i hear you! You look amazing in all the pictures by the way! My daughter has smith magenis syndrome so we dont sleep much here at all.....i hear you loud on that 1! Keep going and loving the magic of life, yours sounds magical! x
ReplyDeleteHello Janey G! Thank you for taking the time to comment here. I am not familiar with Smith Magenis Syndrome, but I am sorry for any problems it might cause you and your family, and of course, the sleep deprivation. I just checked out your blog and it is full of spirit and vibrance. Please stay in touch, you seem like a wonderful lady. :)
Deleteum. 44!? wh...tiffanie! you look AMAZING! i only hope i'm as awesome, ambitious, talented and hot as you in a few years! and i'm not kidding!!!! happy birthday again and thanks for sharing. you inspire me.
ReplyDeleteMonique Peot, you are my number one fan, and I appreciate it so much all the support you give me. I think we have this special connection because of your mother's piñata past! I am so happy to know you (and truly hope to see you soon)! xoxo
DeleteHappy Birthday Tiffanie!! I think you look beautiful (like, are you sure you aren't turning 30?!), but do be careful about the health and sleep. It's the most important thing, really, because without your health, there is nothing. I LOVE to hear how hard you are working too though! Finding the balance between all those things is a daily challenge for me too. I hope your 44th year is your best yet! xoxo
ReplyDeleteAW, LESLIE! You are so sweet. You are so right, about the health. I have had some serious stuff in the past and it came on from stress with a renovation we were doing here, and my husband worries most about that happening again. I just am keeping my fingers crossed that everything will fall into place and eventually there will be more resources for childcare meaning more time for sleep and exercise! I have kept up my end of the bargain since Thanksgiving and given up all-nighters, which has made a big difference, but not enough! Thank you for the well-wishes, looks like your year is starting out with a bang! I'm so happy for you! xoxo
DeleteYou are absolutely beautiful. Think nothing different than the fact you exude loveliness. Stress over other thoughts aren't needed on your fantastic journey.
ReplyDeleteYou are the bomb, Staci. I love everything you make and I love that you support me. I am so happy we met, and I hope we meet again one day! xoxo
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