I'm feeling a little vapid right now. I'm not a long-form writer (unless I'm writing about body image issues, a.k.a. my weight) and I'm not making anything right now. I haven't MADE anything but the bed and dinner for two weeks. I never thought I could handle downtime before, but it turns out I'm more than fine with it. Lots of present time with the family. I'm very fortunate to not often feel depressed, but I definitely crashed a little after I finished everything I had going on last month and am finally feeling good again. I feel like exercise and working again as an architect are what's next for me (I've said that before). We'll see.
I did just sign up for Bombshell Betty's Showgirl Chorus class. I've taken this class before (see some of our performances within the posts here and here), and it is REALLY fun. I love choreography, and I knew I coudn't stay away from performing for too long. This gets me back onstage with a little less work. Betty does the choreography and helps with the costuming. It starts next Wednesday, and I can't wait!
We booked five days in Santa Fe as the midway point on our southwestern road trip summer vacation. I used to live just south of Santa Fe (two decades ago!) and David and I have been back so many times for vacation, we decided to go again this summer because it never disappoints. It'll be hot, but we're going to camp and rough it for part, then spend a nice chunk chilling out at the El Rey Inn, a classic old motor lodge not too far from the center of Santa Fe. We stayed there during our last New Mexican adventure. It's only April and now I'm already thinking about packing for this trip! It is really nice to have things like that to look forward to.
on donuts: the book I'm starting to work on a book proposal and look for an agent for the donut pan book. I have a lot of faith in this as SOME sort of book. Believe it or not I see it as more of a coffee table book, because I think looking at the projects is the fun of it all, but I don't really know what I'm talking about. I took a class at Makeshift Society with Grace Dobush on how to find a publisher. There was so much information there, and as I start to make my way through the process I'll drop some knowledge on you. In the meantime, know any agents who love donuts?
on good advice
Speaking of Makeshift Society, I'm a member at the salon level, which means once a month I get to go down and work in the beautiful space. I've been a member since it opened, seven or eight months ago, and I've only gotten to use it once! My sitter/plans ALWAYS fall through on my MSS days. It's freakish. The one day I did go in December I got my money's worth. I got to talk to Rena Tom about how to start defining myself (or, not) before I had business cards made and went to speak at ALT. She is so awesome.
on good bread
What else. I finally went to The Mill. You can only hear people say "Have you tried the bread? It's AMAZING!" for so long without trying if for yourself. I'm not a huge bread connoisseur, but it is amazing. It's different than any bread I've ever tried before. It's so full. And the space was transporting. I rarely am in a space in California that reminds me of the East Coast, or of East Coast architecture that I thought I'd be designing when I was a young architect, but The Mill nails it. A new happy place.
I'm feeling lighter of heart this week. I've been learning a lot about the alleviation and clarity of thought that comes from stopping placing blame. When you blame others, you put a lot of stress on yourself putting that bad stuff out there. I've done a lot of blaming in my life. There are a lot of reasons to blame other people, because other people can do shitty things. But if you learn to not take those things so personally, to not carry the actions of the "offending" party yourself, it can really lift you up. There are so many nuances of this idea. I have been feeling so sensitive lately, but with a change of perspective I'm feeling less the victim. I'm currently practicing this in all aspects of my life, and it's working.
Finally, we recently discovered the beautiful music of Phosphorescent, who is playing at a venue just blocks from our place this weekend. The same venue where Dave Chappelle tickets sold out in a heartbeat this week, three nights in a row. Phosphorescent sold out as well, but I entered to win tickets through The Owl Mag, pleading our case as parents who'd like a night out, and we won! Really cool. David and I usually base our dates around food or burlesque, so it will be nice to go and hear some music together.
I hope you have a great weekend. Thank you as always for reading! xoxo
p.s. Some of the good bread!